proudness

I have to say, I fucking love it when people are proud of me. I mean genuinely proud, where I deserve it, and they genuinely mean it...

But I know that no way in hell will there be people constantly saying they're proud of me... it just doesn't work that way. And that's stupid.

So, to fill the void, perhaps I need to start being proud of myself.

And I am horrible at that.

But the other day, I WAS proud of myself, if not for only briefly. Maybe I'm working towards it? Maybe eventually I can be genuinely proud of myself?