Ok, so lately...... the "hawt"—I spell this with a very sardonic twang—the "hawt" girls of my school, the girls that every guy "in one second would do unspeakable things to," the femme fatales (and then we'll go ahead and toss the celebrities in there even: the jessica alba's, the angelina jolies, the-i-don't-know-enough-celebrities-for-this-list-to-go-on).......
well, I used to get caught up by all these people, but lately, they have had no effect on me. They do not attract me more than the average girl. And it's odd, because for seemingly everyone else, it's the total opposite... and I used to be like everyone else.
But now, well, it just feels very, liberating.
I think i know what you mean. It's weird when you're in some random place and you see a girl who would normally be either normal or unattractive, and they look pretty gorgeous. It's like the light in the room brings out all the hidden perfections of some girl's face.
ReplyDeleteAnd in that moment you feel good about yourself because your sitting there thinking that some normal girl is pretty much just beautiful.
and you just want to go up to her and tell her just how her normal beautiful face is beautiful.
But you don't.
And you feel like a hole of a person.
and then you just move onto the next trying subject in your pathetic little life.
Well, that's usually what happens to me...
Aw. Wise Noah.
ReplyDeleteI get what you mean. But you have it the other way around. I'm talking about beautiful girls not looking beautiful to me.
Although I do have a post pertaining to your experience coming up. Stay tuned.
And also: "then you just move onto the next trying subject in your pathetic little life." I love this line.