I swear I had something to look forward to as I woke up. I swear I went to bed thinking, There’s something exciting for me when I wake up.

But I wake up, and there’s nothing. And I don’t think I forget anything.

It sometimes pays off to have absent-minded friends. When you don’t feel like hanging out, you don’t have to make excuses, they just forget.

ha!

I saw a friend
the other day we hugged and laughed and slapped hands.

He said hey
I probably said that too, and then

You still doin your thing?
Yeah, I'm still doin my thing,
you still doin your thing?
Yeah, I'm still doin my thing.

He had to go though
so soon

and saying, see you, and
turning around.
I should have said

what happened to you, and
what happened to me

It was the other day though, when we
hugged and laughed and slapped hands
not today.

I had a shake at a restaurant yesterday. It was 5.95. It wasn’t any good. The waitress came by and said, “aren’t our shakes just amazing??” and I lied and said, “Oh, just amazing.”

And then I was taking a shower the next morning and I was longing for the water to just stay and caress me, I needed it. But every drop just nicked me and then proceeded to fall to the ground.

And I touched my scar on my ankle—and it still hurt. After all these years, the wound is still hurting me.

Sometimes I listen to music only to realize how lonely I am. It should have the opposite effect, shouldn’t it? I’ll listen to the yelps and wails and cries of the singer of the band, and I’ll feel something, and I’ll just want another person to feel that same feeling with me.

But all they ever hear is just a bunch of shitty yelps and wails and cries.

have you ever told anyone you missed them, even though you don’t even know the person???

That’s like quasi-physics or something.

I haven't smiled once today! Good God, I need to find something to smile about, right now. This is ridiculous! It's like a cigarette smoker craving a cigarette...I'm craving a smile, and I need one now.


I over exaggerate. I smiled three times today, that I can recall.